September 9th, 1999

Buny

(no subject)

Again I have noticed underlying facts in everything I see...I have chanced upon the second face that people show only when they expect you not to see. And that face is the face of disgust, of hate, and unacceptance... and again... it hurts me inside and draws me deeper down.....

Odd, how I choose to go and participate socialy with a person I barely know, over the person that I have been in love with since the second grade... could this be a change for our anti-hero? no... most likely it as a momentary lapse in sanity since it didn't work, though it might instill a bit of jealousy in another...

But.. who knows... I want new people... the old people have proven melancholy and unfufilling... I need a change, what it will be I don't know... only time will tell the fate of I and all on the world we call Earth